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this year will be the death of me

Monday, Wednesday, Friday
Genetics 10:10-11
Organic Chem 11:15-12:05
Morality & Justice 12:20-1:10 (maaaybe...not so sure about this one)

Tuesday
Biological Statistics 8-9:15 (say NO to 8 am classes)
Insects and Human Society 11-12:15 (oh what glorious fun insects will be)
Organic Chem Lab 1:25-4:25

Thursday
Same as Tuesday except no lab

this year should be oh so fun! i can't wait! nooooot haha

i really can't wait to get back to tech i just don't want to go to these classes. we have an apt this year and i'm so excited about that! i'm also trying out for the club volleyball team at tech soooo i should be prettttty busy

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well this is basically going to be a bitching update so if you don't wanna hear bitching then read no farther...

so my life is officially in suck mode. i started class on wed and already hate the month of july. so my sched for the next month goes as follows:

mon: work @ hosptial 6:45-3:15
tues & thurs: chem class 8-11, chem lab 12-6 (no lie folks...6 hours of lab 2 days a week)
wed & fri: chem class 8-11, work @ hospital 12-4 (or as long as my heart desires)

noooow let's get down to specifics: first of all, i started class on wed (the 5th) and i have a test tomorrow....yup tomorrow...2 days after class started..suuhweeet...i have 2 tests PER WEEK for the entire month! 5 written (not multiple choice) tests, a midterm, and a final (AND THIS IS JUST FOR MY LECTURE)
For lab I'll do 4 labs a week and 2 labs will be due on tues and 2 will be due on thurs. then we have a lab final.
At the end of the month on the 27th I have my last test, on the 28th I have my lab final, and on the 1st I have my final for lecture. now if that doesn't sound like a damn good time i really don't know what does.

I'm already tired as hell and i've only been goin at this shit for 2 days. I would rather be licking an old man's hairy balls than living my life this month aaaaaaaaahh!

ok...enough bitching...sorry for all the complaints. they stop here.

it's all.

soo I started working at the psych hospital. i think everyone in the world should be forced to work at one just so they can appreciate their lives more. it is def a grounding experience and makes you realize that you have suuuuuch a great life. it also makes you realize that all the petty stupid little things that we dwell over are exactly petty and stupid. things like boy/girl problems that we go into depression over are def not worthy of that. once you see what some of these kids have been faced with you learn to live your life to its fullest and not dwell over such petty things. life isn't supposed to be hard...it's meant to enjoy and be happy because whatever is meant to be will find a way to work itself out in the end. ahhh i love inspirational updates haha....anyway...i'll be in lee co this friday till tuesday hopefully....so i know all of you ppl are SO excited about that haha! well i'm gonna go run around ktown for a while

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the ab

I'm rackin my brain
trying to comprehend
how, for some unknown reason, our status will remain as friends
I'm destroying my mind
trying to understand how with little to no effort
you've got me eating out of the palms of your hands

There was not a single spark
when my lips landed on yours in the dark,
but regardless of what happens next
you're my beloved, you just don't know it yet

Tonight I made a secret oath
to keep chasing after you
and I am not going to stop
whether you like it or not

sorry for all the lyric posts, but i'm just completely obsessed with this band and these lyrics realllly tell what's goin on in my life. which no one knows about except for like one person soooo i feel the need to get it out by using song lyrics. so get over it...haha..

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ab

The streets are dark, my pulse is flat-lined
as I'm running to you
You sit completely unaware of what I'm about to do
The air is thick with tension much like when we are together
My fangs are aching as I'm pondering about you and I forever

As I round your corner
I am nervous that you won't be my lover
I knock three times and hope that my pale complexion won't blow my cover
You answer the door with your innocent face
Would you like to leave this human race, tonight?

Eternity will never be enough for me
and eternally will live our infallible love

I feel these four walls closing in
Face up against the glass
I'm looking out, hmmm
Is this my life I'm wondering
It happened so fast
How do I turn this thing around
Is this the bed I chose to make
It's greener pastures I'm thinking about
Hmm, wide open spaces far away

All I want is the wind in my hair
To face the fear but not feel scared

Ooh, wild horses I wanna be like you
Throwing caution to the wind, I'll run free too
Wish I could recklessly love like I'm longing to
I wanna run with the wild horses
Run with the wild horses, oh

Yeah, oh oh, ye-yeah

I see the girl I wanna be
Riding bare-back, care-free
Along the shore
If only that someone was me
Jumping head-first, head-long
Without a thought
To act and damn the consequence
How I wish it could be that easy


But fear surrounds me like a fence
I wanna break free

All I want is the wind in my hair
To face the fear, but not feel scared


Well i haven't updated in forever. I'm in ktown right now but i'll be in lee co wed-sun. I start my job at the psychiatric hospital as a program counselor for adolescents and i also start volunteering on Monday. Other than that....I went on a cruise and it was A-M-A-Z-I-N-G!! Now I'm basically just hanging around the house and doing lots of shopping and spending money that I don't have on clothes haha. I really need to start working to get some money. Anyway, I'm gonna go soak in the jacuzzi :D

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Only 5 more days till my Caribbean cruise!! i'm sooo f'n excited! And i'm also so excited that i'm out of school for a couple of months. it's a great feeling. My first year of college really taught me a lot about myself and I made some of the best friends of my life. I wouldn't change my experience for anything, and I'm so glad I found my place at Va Tech. I can't even explain how eye opening of an experience going off to college is. It truly does teach you a lot about yourself and helps you discover things about yourself you never knew before. Being home is great, but it's a little strange bc i'm not used to someone telling me what to do or asking me where i'm going, what time i'm going to be home and such. I'm used to being my own boss and i have to say that i like it better that way haha. Plus my grades were pretty good this time and I'm so glad bc last semester was not the best of my moments haha...anyway...i'm going to bed so i'll leave with a little bit of a great song...


You belong among the wildflowers
You belong somewhere close to me
Far away from your trouble and worry
You belong somewhere you feel free

wow.
I can't believe that tomorrow at 1 I'm going to be moving out of the place I've called home for 10 months.
I can't believe that I will no longer be a freshman in college.
I can't believe that I'm going to be leaving my best friends for 3 months.
I can't believe I will never live inside these walls again, or go to the communal bathroom.
I can't believe it is all about to come to an end.
I'm excited for summer. I'm excited to see my friends and fam. But I have to say that I'm not all that excited about leaving the people here that mean so much to me. And I can't believe that I won't sleep in the same room, dress in the same room, sing and dance in the same room as Jesse.
It's so weird that I think it's even weirder to return to the place I've called home for 18 years. I feel like this is so weird to leave tech and return home when I've lived there my entire life. Things they are a'changing. And I really don't want to grow up.

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things that stand between me and summer:
1.) research paper due wednesday 26th
2.) calc test wednesday 26th
3.) chem test thursday 27th
4.) oral presentation monday 30th
5.) chem final friday 5th
6.) zoology final saturday 6th
7.) calc final monday 8th

wow maybe i shouldn't have typed those out bc that just made me really stressed.

so i "made" my schedule for next year though it needs some/a lot of adjustments.

Right now I have 18 credits..which is ridic and I'll def be changing that..but so far i have:

Mon/Wed/Fri
Ecology 9:05-9:55 (might drop this one)
Genetics 10:10-11:00
Organic Chem 11:15-12:05

Tues/Th
Cell & Molecular Biology 8:00-9:15 (this 8 am is going to KILL me!!)
Design Appreciation 11:00-12:15 (hopefully I'll find a class to replace this one bc it's not enough credits)
Organic Chem Lab (only on Tuesday) 1:25-4:25

i'm really not looking forward to next semester :'(

now i should probably start working on the list above instead of updating this thing haha

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Where you been hidin'?
I'm believing
You give me life
Life my dear
You give me strength to beat the odds
And overcome my fears
You make me feel like I belong under the sun
You never grow old
Because you're forever young

If there's love...
I just want to have somethin' to do with it
I just wanna feel yours

When I'm alone you make me feel at home
If I give enough of you
To a higher place we'll go
You make me feel like I belong under the sun
You'll never grow old
Because you're forever young
And you know that you got my tomorrow baby
Today and yesterday
Believe that you've got my tomorrow baby
I'll hold you close as far as I can see


verrry verrry good weekend :D just in time for a week from hell..such a busy week. I'll be lucky if I survive the next two weeks bc they are going to give it to me hard. I'm so stoked.....................

--can't wait for summer--just 15 more days! :D

A year has past and now we stand on the brink of returning to a world where we are surrounded by the paradox of everything yet nothing being the same. In a few weeks we will reluctantly give our hugs and, fighting the tears, say goodbye to the people who were once just names on a sheet of paper to return to people that we hugged and fought tears to say goodbye to before we ever left. We will leave our best friends to return to our best friends. We will go back to places we came from and go back to the same things we did last summer and every summer before. We will come into town on that same familiar road, and even thought it has been months, it will seem like only yesterday.

As you walk into your old bedroom, every emotion will pass through you as you reflect on the way your life has changed and the person you have become. You suddenly realize that the things that were most important to you a year ago don't seem to matter so much anymore, and the things you hold highest now, no one at home will completely understand. Who will you call first? Where are you going to work? Who will be at the party Saturday night? What has everyone been up to? Who from school will you keep in touch with? How long before you actually start missing people barging in without calling or knocking? Who will get breadsticks with you at three in the morning? How long until you adjust to sleeping in a room by yourself, or how long before you realize your three best friends aren't in the bed next to your room?

Then you realize how much things have changed, you realize the hardest part of college is balancing the two completely different worlds you now live in, trying desperately to hold on to everything all the while trying to figure out what you have to leave behind. In the matter of one day's traveling time, we will leave our world of living next door to our best friends, walking across campus to eat, instant messenger, 8:00 classes, and perpetual procrastination to a world that will seem foreign to us despite the fact that we have lived in it for nineteen years.

Live a life less ordinary
Live a life extraordinary with me
Live a life less sedentary
Live a life evolutionary with me
Well I hate to be a bother,
But it’s you and there’s no other, I do believe
You can call me naive but...
I know me very well (at least as far as I can tell)
And I know what I need

The night you came into my life
Well it took the bones of me, took the bones of me
You blew away my storm and strife
And shook the bones of me, shook the bones of me
By the way, I do know why you stayed away...
I will keep tongue-tied next time

sorry guys...more lyrics haha
I got my acceptance letter to UT today...hmmm....

Today is gonna be the day
That they're gonna throw it back to you
By now you should've somehow
Realized what you gotta do
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do about you now

Backbeat the word was on the street
That the fire in your heart is out
I'm sure you've heard it all before
But you never really had a doubt
I don't believe that anybody feels
The way I do about you now

And all the roads we have to walk along are winding
And all the lights that lead us there are blinding
There are many things that I would
Like to say to you
I don't know how

Because maybe
You're gonna be the one who saves me?
And after all
You're my wonderwall

tonight is gonna be caaaraaazy! :D

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So apparently I love to post lyrics...oh well
5 days till my 19th
30 days till summer
45 days till my Caribbean cruise :D

soo it turns out i'm not going to UVa this weekend anymore which is probably a good thing so I can save that money instead of spending it on gas.
Home (Lee co) in a week :D can't wait


With everything ahead of us
We left everything behind
But nothing that we needed
At least not at this time
And now the feeling that I'm feeling
Well it's feeling like my life is finally mine
With nothing to go back to we just continue to drive
Without you I was broken
But I'd rather be broke down with you by my side
I didn't know what I was looking for
So I didn't know what I'd find
I didn't know what I was missing
I guess you've been just a little too kind
And if I find just what I need
I'll put a little peace in my mind
Maybe you've been looking too
Or maybe you don't even need to try
Without you I was broken
But I'd rather be broke down with you by my side
With everything in the past
Fading faster and faster until it was gone
Found out I was losing so much more than I knew all along
Because everything I've been working for
Was only worth nickels and dimes
But if I had a minute for every hour that I've wasted
I'd be rich in time, I'd be doing fine
Without you I was broken
But I'd rather be broke down with you by my side

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Alisha